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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
blogger's down! cannt post pictures lehs. tsk! IRRITATING! peeps, wait for a few more days alright ? ii got alot to update lahhs! wait for me ehs? labels : seeing you a few hours per week makes me feels that forever's not enuf I want your love @ 9:38 PM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
misses i've not seen boyfriend for 72 hours . ): ii guess still have to bear for at least 18 hours. rofl~ labels : misses.! I want your love @ 10:45 PM
th mask... A conversation goes like this... **** : I think I still know you better than your current bf. yaya : Hahas. Why say so? Human changes know? **** : Silly. Your taste in food and fashion may change, but never in the heart. I believe if I ever wanted to, it'll only take me a day to recover such information. =D yaya : Hahas. Cool. I choose to keep my comments to myself **** : Why? Tell me. yaya : What why? **** : Why you choose to keep your comments to yourself? yaya : Cos I've never wanted people to know me ever since th day I shut my doors. Its really been years. (to think back) **** : Even me? yaya : Yeah. Including you. **** : I'm surprised you actually think that it's working yaya : Why not? I think it's working pretty well. **** : Alright, if you wish to think that way, I'll play along and let you feel that I don't know you. You'll probably want me to prove what I said, but forget it. Lol. yaya : I'm not. I'm jus trying to say that I dun even know myself at time. How sad. **** : Hmm. Actually it's probably because you're not yourself. In that sense, perhaps. yaya : ..... Somehow I agree. **** : It's true. Perhaps in a way, you're putting on a mask. So when you say you don't know yourself, you don't know that mask, because it's like learning a script. yaya : Dunno lahhs. Drop th topic. I'm really trying very hard already. **** : What what. Tell you what, open up more the real you. And you'll find what you're looking for. Wait... You are trying right =.= yaya : The problem is, I dunno whether I'm, trying to show the real me, or trying to accept th "mask" . Damn it! **** : I mean, you ARE actually searching right. Let them accept th real you. Only that way will you ever be able to find that very feeling. somehow. ii feel sad whenever im touching on this issue. things jus not going th right way at times. no matter how hard ii try, no matter how much effort ii put in, i'm always come back to th same point in th end, jus like walking in a circle, roundd and roundd ... ... ii jus wish that ii cann be myself. labels : take off! I want your love @ 10:27 PM
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
miscommunication "joke"of my day. it goes like this. ii was complaining about my student wasnt paying attention when ii reach home . denn everythingg started with ... me : most of th children having good life nowadays. her : you all not good mehs ? me : im no saying we not having good life, (cos ii knw some people out there having worse), im jus "comparing" our times and theirs. you also everytime compare between your time and ours. her : how can compare? th age of those children now also not much different from yours wad. me : that's th reason we need to compare mahhs. jus a few years time, like difference so much. (den she go back to her only reason) her : you all not good mehs? people only child, we got three lehs. me : den nicholas they all lehs ? (my nieces and nephews) . (LL already den start to find excuses to be her reason) her : people's parent willing to work hard mahhs. denn you all work hard to give your children good life lahhs. [ ii were like .. =.=''' ] andd when she start talking about money, dun bother to say anymore. ii guess even though i'll be th one winning th "rebate" , her voice is still louder than mine. so , forget it! firstly, im not even complaining my life is blah blah blah .~ secondly, their time and ours is obviously too many years back to compare. thirdly, if you can say if we're willing to work hard, our children wont suffer . den why arent you doing it ? or when you're younger ?! jus cos you can have good life like my children if ii work hard? ii didnt mean anythingg lahhs. *no offence* . budd it jus sounds very selfish to me .. now ii undrestand why nobody in my family is successful . cos th selfishness is in th genes.! this is why ii say ii really dunno how to communicate with them anymore. when our reasons are seen as excuses and their excuses are our rules. labels : Damn it! I want your love @ 10:09 PM
Monday, August 10, 2009
ii dunn really like th feeling of my world revolving aroundd yours. haiss. its not supposedd to be this way . budd ii jus cant help it. label : fuck it! I want your love @ 9:34 PM
my new love~ somehow, ii gotta tell you guys a secret. im like falling for others. ii dunno wad am ii suppose to do . feeling so lost. he's making my heart beatingg so fast whenn im with him . making me feelingg everythingg deep within me, more than you can expect. smilingg happily, angry, jealous, sad whenn he abondonedd me all by myself. andd most importantly, LOVED! ii can feel th seriously in me whenn ii look at him . im so sorry.. ii thinkk ii gonna spendd most my time with him than my guy. you thinkk its that right or wrong.? ii guess, nobody will gimme an exact answer . (sigh~) cos there's never a right or wrong in this kinda stuff. im gonna master everythingg to prove that i'll be happy with him aroundd ... labels : DOTA! (: I want your love @ 8:51 PM
Sunday, August 09, 2009
th 101 to th 101 on th 101th . Evolving from nothing to my everythingg. thou ii always say this to my peeps , " jus be yourself .. " " ... when th right person comes along, slot him in your life, budd not making him your life. " until now ii realised how silly is it to tell them this when he/she is so in love with one. you made me realised , you're different. meeting different people, guys who made me feel better at that moment. claiming to say how much they love me, whatsoever. (ii doubt they know wad's love in th first place) budd , whenever ii needed someone, they werent there, at all. when you first stepped into my life, or can ii say when we first met.. (feel like laughing out loud now) Seriously, ii cant fathom being your girlfriend and love everything bout you. (at that point of time, ii emphasize!) & besides, ii was determined that ii should love myself more than ii love anyone else, after those painful experience from previous relationships eventually thru time, and as everyone know, time gradually change everything. & ii mean everything.! everythingg changes when ii got hospitalised. especially , th feeling deep within me. looking forward to receiving your calls, seeing you in person and spending time in your company. budd on th other hand, hating myself for causing trouble to you. ii know there times when im super stubborn and unreasonable,budd you will always find different way of assuring me over and over again. (though its not very sweet at times) basically , ii jus enjoy that . cos its th only time when ii can whine like nobody business. telling me that you wanna protect and love me to your utmost ability. & most importantly, dun wanna see me cry again . ii dunno why, it jus touches me to my bone marrow. BUDD YOUR WERE RIGHT, AND WRONG! ii see everythingg so true budd ii still cry . because you always do th silliest yet sweetest thing that make me tear. tryingg so hardd , controlling that lil monster in me , at times. that lil monster that will spin me out of control. iiLOVEuu, baby! labels : take me cos you complete me. (: I want your love @ 10:16 AM
its her birthday again ! say " Happy Birthday" to everyone~ labels : 44th ! I want your love @ 10:11 AM
Friday, August 07, 2009
you made me smile from within, just like a star. (: labels : hearts it , th 99th ! I want your love @ 11:40 PM
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
for once. ii love h1n1 ~ *GRINNING* I want your love @ 10:38 PM
 ii miss them all~ rofl~ I want your love @ 10:30 PM
random random . ajisan makes a tiredd day at work worth it. (: went to tamp popular to get some art stuffs for serene. baby's new addiction. th King of Pop . DAMN IT! if ii knew i'll be suffering with his alibaba nonsense , ii shouldnt have get it for him . rofl!    biibii's mummy lil celebration at home. (:   billy bombers on third month . ii jus enjoy th lil time spent everytime. (:   mr . charles sulaeman came back from indo~ catch up with him and benny , as well as peggy . andd that fellow over there jus dun like my "sudden attack". LOL .  labels : you make me whole~ I want your love @ 10:26 PM
 Miss Jacelyn Eng's wedding on th 5thdec09. grats grats grats .! whenn's my turn arhhs ? *laughs* ! ii almost cant recognise her when she show it to me. LOL . no wonder ppl say th from th smile on th bride's shows everyth. awwww .... I want your love @ 10:25 PM
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